I CAME TO KNOW THAT I WAS REJECTING OTHERS IN FEAR OF BEING REJECTED

My name is H.

Before I came to program “Solidarnost” I would not admit that I had problems. I am sharp-eyed and it was easy for me to notice other people’s mistakes, but I would ignore mine. I was manipulating others. It was hard for me to set limits for myself. I wanted everything and I wanted it immediately. I was very anxious and would easily become embarrassed. I was very impulsive and being patient and thoughtful was difficult for me. Meeting new people and starting new activities were particularly stressful. I would often reject others and would not admit that I needed them.

In ”Solidarnost” I found out I could set goals for myself and accomplish them. I understood that I can find joy in the ordinary things in life and that I have a say in what happens to me. I came to realize that if I wanted a different life I needed to make a change, and that this was possible. I realized that by opening up emotionally and stating my needs, I no longer feel alone. I learned how to keep things clean and tidy, how to help around the house, to be disciplined and to respect myself. I came to know that I was rejecting others in fear of being rejected.

Now I am more attentive to the important things in life – I notice how people structure their days and how they prioritize, what they actually do, not only what they say. Most importantly I rely on myself and when in need I ask for help. My desire to live is what helps me being firmly grounded. I continued my education and graduated from university. And the profession I chose keeps me going and makes me proud of myself. I managed to straighten up my relationships and to enlarge my social circle. I can now make sense of everything I’ve been through and that makes me rich.